8.02.2005

you needed something else to relieve your emptiness


red is the colour of the dress i wore on the day we first met. i put it on hours before you arrived, i was so excited. i thought of cherries and red smarties, they way they would stain my eleven year old lips as i danced around my bedroom to the sound of duran duran. red was the colour i saw when i closed my eyes and looked straight into the sun. i always thought that the light of the world would shine white but it didn't. wearing the red dress made me feel powerful and sexy and alive. then you called it crimson. i know you just wanted to sound arty and clever but it made me think of blood and death and destruction. i laughed anyway. i wanted you to like me.

it was simply the first in a long line of miscommunications. the beginning always determines the end.

2 comments:

Tara said...

=( Sorry...

t said...

oh no. don't be. fiction the whole lot it. although i probably did dance to duran duran!