what a great day. i never left the house, not even to check the mail. it has been weeks since i have managed to do that, but today was miserable and rainy. inside was the place to be.
tomorrow morning i am off to the dentist for my six month check up. since obtaining a job that covers the expense of such things i go like clockwork with little apprehension. having knocked out my front tooth as a child, an event which resulted in numerous repairs and then finally, when i stopped growing, a crown (which has since had to be replaced), i am not a big fan of the place, but i don't fear it the way some do. i am a little worried about tomorrow though. you see, i only have one cavity in my mouth and i obtained it years ago, but six months ago when i was in for a visit there was a blip that looked like the beginning of a cavity on the x-ray, so i was sternly warned that i needed to floss twice a day or the next time i am in i will surely need a filling.
it is not the filling that has me anxious. it is all the disappointment in the room when they ask if i have been flossing regularly. not that they need to ask, my gums are weak, they don't put up much of a fight with all of the poking and prodding. what i am saying is that they are going to know and they are going to give me the look of shame and my heart is going to sink. i could mumble something about having had a baby and it being a good day when i actually get a chance to shower, that flossing just didn't fit into the plan, but it would be a lie (although the shower thing is true). the fact of the matter is that i don't like to floss and i am lazy in the oral hygiene department. so i will take my shame and swallow it, perhaps this filling will stand as a stern reminder to take better care, but i doubt it. or perhaps i will beat all odds and not have a filling after all? they say miracles happen everyday, maybe tomorrow will be mine.